Not sure why.
Emotional upheaval. Impending menstrual cycle. Old. Decreased water intake. Late nights. Early mornings. Small kids. All of the above.
Yesterday the girls went next door for half a day, after Devin and I got back from story time. I needed that....it gave me a chance to get the meeting minutes and other village stuff done. It was a nice break too....:( Some days I feel like such a crap mom.
Today was better...........piddled around here doing this and that. Worked in the yard all afternoon after we picked Trent up. I finished lashing the wire to the poles for Maiya's yard corral. Who puts their kid in a corral you say? Me. The momma with no fenced yard. Me. The momma who has two big kids who are allowed to go from corner to corner in the front of the house, but still need to be checked on. Me. The momma that has an alley running right behind the house. Me. The momma who has a wading pool out during the summer. That's who. I need to find some sort of material (tarp maybe) that will provide some shade in the
The neighbors picked up our compost (and theirs) today. The old "Dairy Doo", catchy huh? It made for such a wonderful garden last year. We shoveled that all out of the truck and spread it around. Put some in the flower bed, and in the new 'home to be' of the raspberries. Yay! I love spring. I will be working my hiney off in the yard this weekend.
All the kidlets got a bath afterwards, got to wash off the old cow crap. Dinner was catch and kill, and then I took Maiya upstairs to bed. She was so tired. And snuggley. I decided to drag the rocking chair out of my room into her room and rock her. Lord have mercy! She wanted to rock. Maiya, my non-rocking girl. The baby who let me rock her about 5 times in the last 16 months. Little Miss "Heck no, lemme down, I'm not rocking girl." I rocked. She snuggied. I cried. She has caused me an awful lot of stress this last week. She's been fussing for no discernible reason. Can't be molars, all 4 are in. No fever. Not acting sick. Full belly. Dry pants. Plenty of attention. Read to almost every time she throws a book at me. Lately, she wants to be right in my butt. Not clingy really, but just all over me. Even with the one-on-one she gets. And she gets it I tell you. Because she's receptive to it. Devin never was a snuggler. Anywhoo............I took her binky away 10 days ago, so even that seemed not to be her problem. I guess she just needed to rock! Ha! Wouldn't that be nice? Better late than never. So, once again....feeling like a bad momma for not being able to figure that out a few days ago. Could have saved us both the stress and tears. Upwards and onwards.
Survivor was hard to stomach tonight. I. Really. Can. Not. Stand. Shii-Ann. She is such a dumb-ass heifer. I really want to not miss ER, but I may have to cash out. Lame-O!
Packaged up some baby stuff to send off today and took it to the post office. I'm glad the stuff is going to people who need it and are friends. Somehow made it easier to pack up a phase of my life that is now over. :( Ai yi yi! It didn't take away the squeeze in my heart completely, but it could have been worse. Much worse. The mommy me wanted to slap the shit out of the rational me who kept saying..."You know you are way to friggin' old to be thinking about any more kids, let alone the fact that Dave had the big V......" Real heifer that rational me......;)
The dog should be leaving soon. Knock on wood......
Okay.........big plans (as always) for tomorrow. Need sleep.
